this month couldn't possibly get any worse ya know.... just last week Kendra broke up with me.. even though i know the reason i still feel like it's my fault b/c thats how i felt every time a GF broke up with me b/c they felt more like friends it's my god damn fault i know it but i knew this was going to happen b/c hey the same god damn fucking thing happened to me 5 times hmm i think i realized the Trend its called it's always my fault thats a bad thing b.c if i would of tried or something idk Somthing i think i might of been able to keep this going but it's just not possible now kinda impossible to get anyone to like you again But so far out of everyone Kendra's the only one that keeps appearing in my dreams it's like my mind wants me to think im still going out with her or something and i know we arn't and won't change ever again hell i don't even seem like a friend either idk im in a Really bad mood Right now And Failing at GH3 on hard trying to beat the Devil an't helping either GOD fuck you for making my life how it is also puting me with 2 fucked up parents and only leaving me with a great sister who i barely see Ugg my life = SCREWD the fuck up and so far i think it's going to stay that way I'll never find that someone b/c im to Idk what to call it if anything Shy ........ W/E maybe the best route is just to say fuck it all and live in darkness and let them deal with there lives and say i was never here and only be with my sister since that was when i was really happy.. Besides when i was around Kendra when i was going out with her but hey thats no more so the only place i can be truly happy is with my sister until i find another person which will take a long time unless i become un shy which hey i prolly can't change that and if anyone really cared about me they will have to wait till i am totally succure  about them which i just did get succure With Kendra but that was on the day She dumped me so W/e

im going to the works with my sister tonight it should be fun.. To bad Kendra couldn't come.. Today hmmm how was today... today was fun yep fun fun fun.. can't think of anything to write ... um idk im going to my dads to night then coming back to my moms house ugg im tired ima sleep before my sis gets here cyas