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Tuesday, 11 November 2008

  • Life Sux

    Hey what sup people. just being myself so far. life isnt that good right now Stupid Ex Girlfriend loves to Annoy me and confuse the Fuck out of me with her feelings i said fuck it w.e i give up im just going to sit back and enjoy the view untill there is someone that wants to be with me untill then ill have fun and shit with out them. but it would be nice to have someone.. to hold and get through tough times.. cuz thats all thats been happening here just one fucked up thing after another gah hopfully life will change one day.. i hate my ex with a passion.. she really needs to die. her name is Sam if anyone was wondering.

Monday, 14 January 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Land of Confusion
    By Disturbed
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    FUCK!

    this month couldn't possibly get any worse ya know.... just last week Kendra broke up with me.. even though i know the reason i still feel like it's my fault b/c thats how i felt every time a GF broke up with me b/c they felt more like friends it's my god damn fault i know it but i knew this was going to happen b/c hey the same god damn fucking thing happened to me 5 times hmm i think i realized the Trend its called it's always my fault thats a bad thing b.c if i would of tried or something idk Somthing i think i might of been able to keep this going but it's just not possible now kinda impossible to get anyone to like you again But so far out of everyone Kendra's the only one that keeps appearing in my dreams it's like my mind wants me to think im still going out with her or something and i know we arn't and won't change ever again hell i don't even seem like a friend either idk im in a Really bad mood Right now And Failing at GH3 on hard trying to beat the Devil an't helping either GOD fuck you for making my life how it is also puting me with 2 fucked up parents and only leaving me with a great sister who i barely see Ugg my life = SCREWD the fuck up and so far i think it's going to stay that way I'll never find that someone b/c im to Idk what to call it if anything Shy ........ W/E maybe the best route is just to say fuck it all and live in darkness and let them deal with there lives and say i was never here and only be with my sister since that was when i was really happy.. Besides when i was around Kendra when i was going out with her but hey thats no more so the only place i can be truly happy is with my sister until i find another person which will take a long time unless i become un shy which hey i prolly can't change that and if anyone really cared about me they will have to wait till i am totally succure  about them which i just did get succure With Kendra but that was on the day She dumped me so W/e

Tuesday, 01 January 2008

  • The New year

    We all are going to change again and things shall happen that some people don't want to happen and no one can stop it b/c its how life is if everyone got what they wanted we all be dead (this is B/c of my friend stuebner) lol. And also life wouldn't be a challenge when u want something u have to work for it so u can Feel like u deserve it..........Next topic...... I Want to change something about me that really i think needs to be changed and i feel like i'm a stupide retard that just can't do this one thing at all B/c I'm to fuckin scared to do it even though the other person would be willingly to do it. gah i hate this one part in me, it's called the Shyness to kiss a girl. i hate it. i can't just go up to her and kiss her even when i really want to i back down like a fuckin pussy and it sux god i hate that ah idk why i just can't kiss her when we are staring into each others eyes and everything seems to go away.. ugg i hate that. And just once i wish we could go somewhere else besides her house it be so much funner like the day she missed her bus =] that was a fun day even though she was kinda freaking out lol still had a fun time. I also would like to see her outside of school more but i don't think that will happen untill she gets a car... until then though i guess i'll have to deal with it like this gah well ttyl peeps

Friday, 07 December 2007

  • The Works

    im going to the works with my sister tonight it should be fun.. To bad Kendra couldn't come.. Today hmmm how was today... today was fun yep fun fun fun.. can't think of anything to write ... um idk im going to my dads to night then coming back to my moms house ugg im tired ima sleep before my sis gets here cyas

Tuesday, 27 November 2007

  • the blah day

    idk today feels weird i am getting blamed for telling the truth to one friend then get yelled at by the other when i don't lie even if the person got a Text message saying stuff idk it's just weird i feel hated to today and like i know only 2 people that don't hate me at all and they know who they are or should anyway lol ah idk Oh well maybe tomorrow will be better i might not be there in the morning b/c i Don't want to do a project lol hmmm i wonder how i'd get to school.. lol oh well we'll c what happens

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